Tuesday, April 8, 2014


I think I'm back.....to this blog. Over the last few years I've gone through phases of trying to be healthy and fit, but I always end up back to the same place......restricting. At my lowest I purge and it's because I can't stop binging! I hope that with this blog I might be able to make it up to myself and finally lose the weight. In latr June my mom and I are travelling to California and I can't wait.....except for the fact that I wish I would be atleast 20 lbs lighter by then. My current predicament (sp?): Height: 5'5" HW:160 (sometime last year) CW:155 UGW:112 I hope to lose 43 lbs by the end of then year.

Friday, June 17, 2011


Hi everyone i just wanted to update to you all. I am still at 135 lbs.
For the past few days I have been eating one or two meals. One at about 2 or 3 oclock and one at about 8 if i am hungry. But the meals were not that big such as a piece of pizza or some fruits and granola.

Today I decided to eat at 11 am and i should NOT NOT NOT have done that!!!! I ate 2 pizza of pizza and a muffin. Since I had the pizza n muffin i decided that i wouldn't eat the rest of the day. But the binge wasn't my problem it was my stomach a few minutes later. My stomach hurt so much!!!!! I decided that it was because my body had adapted to me eating either later or less.

It reminded me of another time when my body had adapted to not eating as much and when I ate more than usual my stomach started hurting and i didn't even eat all of it.

So at that time i felt like i had to Throw-up so i thought and decided it was too much pain so i tried to speed the process up by making myself throwup and it did nothing!!!

Usually when my stomach hurts all I have to do is go to sleep and when i wake up my stomach doesn't hurt anymore. But two nights ago I stayed up until 1 am and woke up at 6 am so i was really tired and i slept that afternoon so by the time i went to bed late night i was not tired at all!! It was 1:30 and i kept trying to make myself go to sleep and finally i did and i woke up at 8:30. So it took me forever to go to sleep when my stomach hurt and when i woke up it was gone.

And just a few minutes ago i drank some water and took a pill for pain because i got surgery on my knee :P and My stomach starting hurting a little from a stinkin pill!!!! But it went away fast.

But i am just thinkin what the heck is wrong with my body.


Saturday, May 28, 2011

Plans!!! Ruined :(

On Thursday I was going to start exercising!
But someone ran into me in P.E. :(
I ended up going to Emergency at the hospital.
I got a X-Ray and I had a lot of fluid n' blood in my knee:/
Then i got a brace.
At 6:15 we went to another place where i got an MRI, which took so long!!!
We got a CD to show the docter on Tuesday
but we took a peek and two places in my knee are fractured :(
So Friday I didn't go to school :p
My Docters Appointment will be on Tuesday at 8:20 am
so I definatly won't be at school for the begining of the day :(

Now i have a lot to do when I get back to school.
Usually The week before the week school ends is a bunch of tests and the week after is crazy mayham and fun + signing yearbooks and all that jazz, but that will not necessarily happen for me since I missed so much.

This is what i have to do when i get back to school:
1. finish math Final
2. Turn in a History Project + we haven't started the final yet :/
3. Spanish Final
4. Language Arts Poet Presentation (in front of the class :/ ) + Turn in an Extended Metaphorical Poem + I learned we are having a Test on Poets we learned in class, but i wasn't there to learn about one of the poets :/ + we still haven't taken our final:(

Ughhh I really really can't wait until summer now:

with love,

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Be the change you wish to see in the world- ghandi

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Happy Easter!!! :)

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Hi i am doing well today but i really wanted to let you know about a blog i found. She has a few followers and needs more support!! Everyone go follow alice ana! PLEASE AND THANK YOU!! :)

~with love,

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

determination to continue on without hesitation, when i gain more motivation from my progres n wen i get enough self control i will do the abc diet again