Sunday, December 26, 2010

6th or 7th??

Idk if it has been 6 days or 7 days of failure. Any way and Either way it is a huge blob of failure!! *smh* Uh i guess tomorrow starts a day and week i wil be STRONG!!! :( i hope!

Thursday, December 23, 2010

OK................ is 10:11 am and i hav had nothing

Tuesday, December 21, 2010



+ another version to show my stats!!

New and improved start date: 12/20/2010


Hw- 135 lbs.

Cw-130 lbs.

Ugw- 95 lbs.

Ugw date: 5/1/2010 ( June 1st, 2011)

Goal Weights: 135 134 133 132 131 130 129 128 127 126 125- I can start saving $2 out of every $5 of my allowance to pay for new jeans :)

124 123 122 121 120- Buy a pretty bracelet(porbably red, for pro-ana)

119 118 117 116 115 114 113 112 111 110

109 108 107 106 105- Plan a trip to the movies with friends

104 103 102 101 100 - Buy new jeans (hopefully size 0) and maybe ask for another ear piercing :)

99 98 97 96 95- Pure Happiness + ( if at 100 lbs. i don't fit into size 0 get some now!!!:)

Uh..............I will do better,.....I have to!!!

On Sunday morning I did good as I recall on my last blog post, but for lunch we were leaving and my mom said we had to pickup something to eat. I had a plan to just grab some spicy chicken nuggets from wendys, but we were'nt going that direction. We had to go to portillos:(. I had chilli with extra cheese,no onions, and half of the regular size fries. Failure. Then for dinner the family went to mcdonalds where I got a hamburger with bacon, ketchup, and mayo. And a medium fry. Next day (yesterday) I had a s'mores poptart which was 200 calories then I had a sandwich with corn beef and havarti cheese, only one slice of bread. Then I had some graham crackers dipped in cream cheese icing. I kno it sounds like alot ,but by 4:00 I was still only at about 800 calories which is pretty good. Then I had to go to a party and we caroled for st. Jude's children's hospital. We were walking in 5-6 inches of snow when all of a sudden I was looking at the ground and I felt dizzy. Then it happened again while I was stompin through the snow to get to someones door and I got really lightheaded/dizzy. I am pretty sure it was from not eating enough. but this makes me think, if i almost faint from only 800 what have i been eating? i probably should be eating about 1,400 calories i am guessing, but that is only a 600 calorie difference from the 800 i ate, so it shouldn't make a difference but it did because i almost fainted. that means i have been eating way more calories than that. So wen I got to their house for the rest of the party I had 2 pieces of pizza and 4 cookies. It was all really really good but I felt so bad because i restricted so long just to binge in the last 4 hours of my 12-13 hour day

Saturday, December 18, 2010

A New and Better Start!!!

Hi!! I know I haven't been blogging for a long time,but now I am back! Today for breakfast I had 2 apple slices ,out of 8 slices, and about 3 1/2 tbsp of grits with butter and seasoning salt. If I had to guess I'd say that it was about 200 or 250 calories at the most! My hw:135lbs cw:130lbs gw1:120lbs gw2:115lbs gw3:110lbs gw4:105lbs gw5:100lbs gw6:95lbs bye!!! I might blog later today!