Friday, June 17, 2011


Hi everyone i just wanted to update to you all. I am still at 135 lbs.
For the past few days I have been eating one or two meals. One at about 2 or 3 oclock and one at about 8 if i am hungry. But the meals were not that big such as a piece of pizza or some fruits and granola.

Today I decided to eat at 11 am and i should NOT NOT NOT have done that!!!! I ate 2 pizza of pizza and a muffin. Since I had the pizza n muffin i decided that i wouldn't eat the rest of the day. But the binge wasn't my problem it was my stomach a few minutes later. My stomach hurt so much!!!!! I decided that it was because my body had adapted to me eating either later or less.

It reminded me of another time when my body had adapted to not eating as much and when I ate more than usual my stomach started hurting and i didn't even eat all of it.

So at that time i felt like i had to Throw-up so i thought and decided it was too much pain so i tried to speed the process up by making myself throwup and it did nothing!!!

Usually when my stomach hurts all I have to do is go to sleep and when i wake up my stomach doesn't hurt anymore. But two nights ago I stayed up until 1 am and woke up at 6 am so i was really tired and i slept that afternoon so by the time i went to bed late night i was not tired at all!! It was 1:30 and i kept trying to make myself go to sleep and finally i did and i woke up at 8:30. So it took me forever to go to sleep when my stomach hurt and when i woke up it was gone.

And just a few minutes ago i drank some water and took a pill for pain because i got surgery on my knee :P and My stomach starting hurting a little from a stinkin pill!!!! But it went away fast.

But i am just thinkin what the heck is wrong with my body.


Saturday, May 28, 2011

Plans!!! Ruined :(

On Thursday I was going to start exercising!
But someone ran into me in P.E. :(
I ended up going to Emergency at the hospital.
I got a X-Ray and I had a lot of fluid n' blood in my knee:/
Then i got a brace.
At 6:15 we went to another place where i got an MRI, which took so long!!!
We got a CD to show the docter on Tuesday
but we took a peek and two places in my knee are fractured :(
So Friday I didn't go to school :p
My Docters Appointment will be on Tuesday at 8:20 am
so I definatly won't be at school for the begining of the day :(

Now i have a lot to do when I get back to school.
Usually The week before the week school ends is a bunch of tests and the week after is crazy mayham and fun + signing yearbooks and all that jazz, but that will not necessarily happen for me since I missed so much.

This is what i have to do when i get back to school:
1. finish math Final
2. Turn in a History Project + we haven't started the final yet :/
3. Spanish Final
4. Language Arts Poet Presentation (in front of the class :/ ) + Turn in an Extended Metaphorical Poem + I learned we are having a Test on Poets we learned in class, but i wasn't there to learn about one of the poets :/ + we still haven't taken our final:(

Ughhh I really really can't wait until summer now:

with love,

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Be the change you wish to see in the world- ghandi

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Happy Easter!!! :)

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Hi i am doing well today but i really wanted to let you know about a blog i found. She has a few followers and needs more support!! Everyone go follow alice ana! PLEASE AND THANK YOU!! :)

~with love,

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

determination to continue on without hesitation, when i gain more motivation from my progres n wen i get enough self control i will do the abc diet again
to try and start eating 500 calories or less wen it becomes normal and i am not messin up all the time i will lower my max. Intake wen i get enough
I am really sorry to say this but.........i am quiting the abc diet. At the same time I am happy cuz i kno eventually i will come back to it.. I am goin

Today's Calculations :(

Ham n' Cheese Cresont(sp)-280
Brownie(from friend:( )-???60
TOTAL.....I am scared.......650!!!!!! :(

Ahhhhh!!! That is horrible! Now i am going to make sure i don't eat anything else tonight and I will exercise!

I g2g do my hw. :)

~with love,

Monday, April 18, 2011

AHHHHH!!!!! WHY????

Uh my mom made dinner. do i need to say anything more? :(
Snack- 1 hard boiled egg white-16
todays total- 341 + grapes (my dad wont get off my laptop even though he says he is going back to work So i cant find cals):/
Well about 5 hours and 25 minutes until i go to bed doesnt seem that long so maybe i wont eat anything else tonight!
For snack- popcorn-45
for lunch-salad with dressin-50
grapes-idk :p
total for today- 325 + grapes
Good Morning! :)
Breakfast- 1/2 cup frosted flakes
1/2 cup milk
130 calories
I hope this works!!!
I just connected blogger to my fone!!

Sunday, April 17, 2011


Well i felt that i would fail today :/ and that it is easier to start things on Mondays so that is what I am doing.

~with love,

Pro-Ana bracelet??

Do you wear a Ed or pro-ed bracelet?
Well I want to start wearing one.
The only thing is the meaning. Most pro-ana's wear a red bracelet, but some people consider red for support for anorexia. I don't want to wear it and think someone is pro-ana like me and come to find out they are actually an anorexic seeking support. :/ I do not want that to happen. Maybe it is the dragonfly. I have heard that many pro- Ana bracelets have a dragonfly on them. I was thinking maybe that adding the dragonfly would consider it pro-Ana. What are your thoughts?
I am actually also considering wearing a pink bracelet, for ED-nos. I don't want to just class myself into an ed, but I feel that I might be ED-nos.
I might not do it though because I don't think many people have heard of the other colors so I probably wouldn't find anyone wearing a pink bracelet.
To see the other colors click Here.

~with love,

I am so sorry!!!

Hi everyone! :) I just wanted to let you know I am sorry. I have failed everyone that took the time to read and follow my blog. I really want to change my life. I am starting the an diet today and no matter what happens i will continue and try to post at least once every 2 days. Today is goin well ( I think). It is only 7:39 so far I haven't eaten anything. :) I will probably post later since it's Sunday.

~with love,

Monday, March 14, 2011

I am back

Starting the abc diet tomorrow!!