Sunday, December 26, 2010

6th or 7th??

Idk if it has been 6 days or 7 days of failure. Any way and Either way it is a huge blob of failure!! *smh* Uh i guess tomorrow starts a day and week i wil be STRONG!!! :( i hope!

Thursday, December 23, 2010

OK................ is 10:11 am and i hav had nothing

Tuesday, December 21, 2010



+ another version to show my stats!!

New and improved start date: 12/20/2010


Hw- 135 lbs.

Cw-130 lbs.

Ugw- 95 lbs.

Ugw date: 5/1/2010 ( June 1st, 2011)

Goal Weights: 135 134 133 132 131 130 129 128 127 126 125- I can start saving $2 out of every $5 of my allowance to pay for new jeans :)

124 123 122 121 120- Buy a pretty bracelet(porbably red, for pro-ana)

119 118 117 116 115 114 113 112 111 110

109 108 107 106 105- Plan a trip to the movies with friends

104 103 102 101 100 - Buy new jeans (hopefully size 0) and maybe ask for another ear piercing :)

99 98 97 96 95- Pure Happiness + ( if at 100 lbs. i don't fit into size 0 get some now!!!:)

Uh..............I will do better,.....I have to!!!

On Sunday morning I did good as I recall on my last blog post, but for lunch we were leaving and my mom said we had to pickup something to eat. I had a plan to just grab some spicy chicken nuggets from wendys, but we were'nt going that direction. We had to go to portillos:(. I had chilli with extra cheese,no onions, and half of the regular size fries. Failure. Then for dinner the family went to mcdonalds where I got a hamburger with bacon, ketchup, and mayo. And a medium fry. Next day (yesterday) I had a s'mores poptart which was 200 calories then I had a sandwich with corn beef and havarti cheese, only one slice of bread. Then I had some graham crackers dipped in cream cheese icing. I kno it sounds like alot ,but by 4:00 I was still only at about 800 calories which is pretty good. Then I had to go to a party and we caroled for st. Jude's children's hospital. We were walking in 5-6 inches of snow when all of a sudden I was looking at the ground and I felt dizzy. Then it happened again while I was stompin through the snow to get to someones door and I got really lightheaded/dizzy. I am pretty sure it was from not eating enough. but this makes me think, if i almost faint from only 800 what have i been eating? i probably should be eating about 1,400 calories i am guessing, but that is only a 600 calorie difference from the 800 i ate, so it shouldn't make a difference but it did because i almost fainted. that means i have been eating way more calories than that. So wen I got to their house for the rest of the party I had 2 pieces of pizza and 4 cookies. It was all really really good but I felt so bad because i restricted so long just to binge in the last 4 hours of my 12-13 hour day

Saturday, December 18, 2010

A New and Better Start!!!

Hi!! I know I haven't been blogging for a long time,but now I am back! Today for breakfast I had 2 apple slices ,out of 8 slices, and about 3 1/2 tbsp of grits with butter and seasoning salt. If I had to guess I'd say that it was about 200 or 250 calories at the most! My hw:135lbs cw:130lbs gw1:120lbs gw2:115lbs gw3:110lbs gw4:105lbs gw5:100lbs gw6:95lbs bye!!! I might blog later today!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Pro-Mia not Pro-Ana

About 2 days ago i decided to become pro-mia. Pro-ana is hard to keep up with when people are watching your every move. Good news i have a boyfriend on here we will call him Ron. Yesterday night and Tonight i purged i know i didn't get all of the food out either time but i'm just starting.
with love,

Monday, February 15, 2010


heres some new pics

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

mad mad mad mad mad mad

Today i am 118 pounds and i am mad mad mad but heres some thinspo.